How many things are on your ‘bucket list’? How many things do you want to do in this world, but you either never make the plans to make it happen – or when it comes time to do it, you shrink away, riddled with anxiety, fear, or the idea that you won’t be able to do it perfectly, so why bother?
In saying this, I have to admit that I’m very guilty of both of these. There are so many things I want to do, yet I make excuses for them and don’t accomplish them. Some of these have to do with money, which is reasonable – I mean, trips to Fiji aren’t free, after all! However, some things I just don’t do out of laziness, or out of fear.
Fear that it will be hard. Fear that it won’t be done perfectly. Fear that I’ll look bad doing it. Fear that I would fall and hurt myself.
Well, fuck you, fear.
I just signed up for the Tough Mudder in Whistler on June 20th, 2015.
This is something I’ve wanted to do for years, yet for all that time I made excuses about why I couldn’t do them (I was pregnant one year so that didn’t count!) – I wasn’t fit enough, I didn’t have the endurance to do it, I was too scared to do it – and every year I’d see those muddied warriors walking through the village in Whistler, and I’d get this fire in my belly.
I wanted to do it.
And next year?
I’m going to.